Patience

I had my biopsy Wednesday and doctor said my doctor would probably have the results today and let me know. I have waited all day, never left my cell phone out of reach. No call. I know my doctor and she would have called me so I am guessing they didn't get mine read by the radiologist yet. I was looking forward to finding out what foreign object is in my gut.

I am not sick, have no pains, and really am quite healthy despite some normal things that come around at my age. I am very active and keep my brain working all the time. I love to learn. My feelings are this thing is something that can be taken care of without any problems. I feel very confident about it.

So I will continue to wait. My life has been a waiting game for quite awhile now. A year ago my mother had surgery and suffered severe brain damage due to lack of oxygen during her after care days while in the hospital. I took her to specialists to find out what happened to her. She is somewhat like how a 2 year old would act now. I have had to learn what patience is about, something I have never really had much of.

We finally got her house sold, new owner takes possession October 1 so we are in the process of cleaning out her home. It is sad, I have so many memories of my parents as they built this house. It was their dream. We have divided up most of the items we want as a family. What is left was valuable to mother. I wonder what of mine anyone would want when I die?

I try to keep clutter out of my house. I clean out closets and cupboards frequently so as not to have STUFF stashed away that I don't use. That way I am not buying things again because I can't find them.

Since mother is in the nursing home because of her brain damage, I am down to about four totes of clothing and some things that she likes to look at. How sad it is to accumulate our things to end up with so little that really matters. What does matter most is the people who love us and the people we love. Nothing else really matters at all as long as we have love.