Forgiveness

How does one go about asking forgiveness? First I pray to God to forgive me and for others to forgive me when I have done something I am not proud that I did. I had a bad day yesterday and in the midst of it all I was so upset I did things I am not proud of. I acted in a way that I should not of and I cannot say anymore than I am sorry.
I am a very tender hearted person and I don't like to make people upset. I tend to be the person who wants to fix problems and try to take on more than I should. I want peace and love, but some days just don't work out that way.
I also know that until someone has gone through major health issues in their lives like I have with my cancer you can never quite be comfortable with anything again. Every little ache or pain or issue that might make you think of cancer will always be in the back of your mind. I am getting closer to August 4th when I go back for my second set of scans to see if everything is still normal since my surgery in November. I pray daily all will be good. One can never get that thought out of their mind.
I pushed myself this week and became very worn down and fatigued, I think that is what made me act the way I did this week. My shot that I get for my cancer also has a side affect that it can lower blood sugar if you are diabetic. I had my shot last Friday and it takes about a week for my blood sugar to stabilize. I am diabetic and have been since 2008. When my blood sugar is messed up I tend to get very emotional and I cry easily.
Since my surgery for cancer I have become more sympathetic towards others who have had the same. I can relate to their feelings. I wish there was a support group near for my type of cancer, carcinoid. So many emotions run through your mind and body.
So if I am having a bad day, please understand it is not you. What would make things better for me is to just talk to me and ask if there is something you can do for me. An ear to listen, a hug, or just a smile to say you understand.

Mowing Lawn Again

You know I love mowing the lawn, can't wait to start in the Spring. I have it all figured out that I will have to mow at least 26 times during the season. I have a very large yard and it takes me a good 4 hours. Those 4 hours give me lots of time to think and hash out things that I am thinking about. It is the best therapy for me to sit on that mower and dream, think and plan my days. Not everybody likes to mow like I do and I take great pride in making my lawn beautiful so I can enjoy it when I get done. I love to walk around the yard and look at all the things that I have planted and how good my garden is growing.
I am thankful that God has given me another summer to mow since I love it so much. When I found out I had cancer last fall I kept thinking of all the things I would not be able to do or would miss doing. He gave me another chance at life so that I can do all that and more. God is so good. I try to take care of his creation to the best of my ability. That is why Denise Thinks Green.

Coffee

I love coffee, I cannot even start my day without it. I love the smell and the taste. I cannot even think without at least one cup of coffee first thing when I wake up. My favorite time is early in the morning hours on a sunny morning as I sit on my porch watching the sun come up, listening to the birds greeting me. I cannot pass a coffee shop without being drawn into it to get my favorite cup of java. I enjoy being with friends as we have our coffee, trying to solve the worlds problems. I cannot have the same feelings with a soda or tea, what about you? What is your favorite way to drink coffee and when do you enjoy it the most? Want to join me for coffee soon? Name the day and spot, I will be there.