Day Two

Okay, this is the day after I was told by my doctor that they found cancer in my biopsy. Of course the whole night was a blurr, didn't sleep well and my mind kept wandering. It is hard not to think the What If's but it is best not to go there. I will be practicing the Law of Attraction during this time in my life more than any other time. I will be healthy and I will succeed at reaching this goal.

I got up very early today, went to work as usual. I knew it was going to be hard. I have so many friends at work, each and everyone of them came to me when they found out and hugged me, tears in their eyes, giving me tons of support. If I ever doubted that I have friends this is a true test. So many of us have our own stories with our lives, but each of them took the time to be there for me today and promise to be in the future. I am going to hold them to it. I will need them all.

The girls in my office sent me flowers to cheer me up. Of course I cried, I cry at about anything. That is how I am made. They said it was to cheer me up, it did, they were tears of happiness and gratefulness. I appreciate them all.

I got the call from my doctor for what is to come now. I go back to the hospital next Monday, September 28 for a CAT Scan to check other places and a MRI to make sure it has not spread. I will need a driver that day because I requested to be mildly sedated for the MRI. My neighbor Brenda is going to be with me that day. She is wonderful. I won't get any results back that day so it is just the scans and home.

October 1 I will be going to the cancer doctor at the Cancer Center in Mason City. Dr. Bate will be the doctor. I am told by many that he is wonderful and I have confidence in their opinion. I know he will be good. My husband Gordon will go with me that day so he can be a part of this journey.

Brandon, my son lives 225 miles from us. He calls Gordon and I frequently. It is hard being so far from the ones we love during times like this. He would be here if he could. I can depend on him for support and help as I need it also.

I don't know what to expect after I talk with Dr. Bate so I cannot worry about that. It seems like a long time away. Remember I have never had a lot of patience but God sure is testing me now. I need to change my wording now, I HAVE PATIENCE! I WILL BE PATIENT.

When I turned on the computer after I got home my Facebook page was loaded with prayers and positive thoughts. My email box was too, I am grateful for online and face to face friends for emails, phone calls and hugs. You are great.

The picture is of the beautiful flowers I received today from the girls in my office. I will enjoy them every day.