Got a call from the cancer doctors office, set up my MRI and ultra sound for next week. They will do an MRI on the adrenal glands because they look enlarged. The ultra sound will be on the uterus to see what the shadows are there. I pray both are okay. Then I meet with the cancer doctor on Thursday. I will know more then.
I want to thank everyone who has called, prayed, sent messages and just plain gave me a hug during these past weeks. I am so grateful to all of you. I don't want you to stop, I need it. It is good for my soul.
Everybody that is in my life in there for a reason. I think often about how come this person is in my life and the person walking down the street who I do not know has nothing to do with my life. I believe we are all put in the place we are meant to be. I try to make the best of my life. I want to be able to help others. I will continue to give of myself to help others but I do plan to take better care of Denise. Right now I need to be here for myself also.
Tonight before I go to bed I am going to write down 5 things that I am grateful for today. I know I can find 5 things if not more. I try to do this every night. These are the things I am grateful for today:
1. The softness of my dogs coat as I pet him and the look in his face of the love he has for me.
2. I managed to get my mother to the doctor and back safely and that what she needed checked is nothing to be too concerned about.
3. My support team of friends at work and home, I feel loved.
4. I had a job to go to today, so many people don't.
5. I talked to my grandchildren and son on the phone today, I love them so much.
You see that was easy. So could you come up with 5 things to be grateful for each day? Why not give it a try, you will be surprised what is out there. No matter how bad of a day you are having, you can find 5 things to be grateful for.
I am letting go of some of the worries that I used to have. I am finding peace in the quiet of my home. I am spending more time seeing things from others eyes. I am soaking it all in. I can't wait what I will see tomorrow
I know I don't say this enough, but I hope you know that I love you very much! I can't tell you how much this has affected me in the last weeks. Expressing my feelings has never been something I'm good at and expressing my feelings about my only aunt having this ridiculous thing called cancer is nearly impossible. But I want you to know that I've shed my tears and I've moved to the point of beating this and you being the inspiration I need. No one has ever believed in me like you have.
ReplyDeleteI know you're strong. You're stronger than I am. I know this is something you can fight and conquer. I'm done feeling this horrible feeling of hopelessness. I just want you to know that I, along with the rest of your family, is there with you every step of the way. We love you. We're here for you.
I love you. You've always been my Aunt Nee Nee and you know that. :) We're going to win.