Denise Goddess of Wine

Tomorrow I go back to Dr. Bate, the cancer doctor. I've had numerous tests and hopefully we are closer to finding out how to treat this. The thing is, I feel so healthy now, better than I have in a long time. I don't feel like there is cancer, nothing at all. Could I be in denial, could it just be a mistake on their part and I really don't have anything? I can only hope for the last part being their mistake.

If you pray at all, please pray for me tomorrow that they did make a mistake or this is just not as big a deal as they made it to be. I pray that I am already healed and on my way to health. God is bigger than cancer and I have turned this all over to him.

Whatever I do find out, I do know I have learned a lot about people during this time. We are all so different yet the same in many ways. God made us all different for a reason and we each have a story. Mine just happens to be cancer right now.

My friend Dixie called me today. We were talking about what our names mean. This is what my name means: Follower Of Dionysus (The God Of Wine).

Dionysus, Greek God
of Wine and Ecstasy

Dionysus, God of Wine,
Known by Many Names,
The Resurrection God,
The Wanderer, and The Wild Man
And Zagreus, the Underworld Dionysus.
The Greek god Dionysus is also
known as the Roman god Bacchus.

I have read that before, I really don't understand it. I hate wine and am allergic to it, so why would I follow someone like Dionysus. To me he sounded like a wild and crazy kind of person. I need to study more about that.

So what does this have to do with my cancer story--nothing. I just needed something else to talk about. I love finding the meaning of things and the truth so maybe it all does. I want to find the truth behind the diagnosis I have been given. I want to find out who, what, when, where, why and sometimes how it all happened. I will be going for a second opinion and the doctor will set that up tomorrow.

To sum it all up this is what has been decided with Dionysus:

The recurrent themes of life and death, run though the legends of Dionysus. They teach us that the journey from being the Divine Child to a fruitful kingship requires the "giving up" (death) of the old self and rebirth in a more mature form. The myths of the Greek god Dionysus remind us that the possibilities of intense, ecstatic experience (whether through alcohol, other drugs, dancing, or spiritual experience) include both a dark side with the potential for great harm to ourselves and others, as well as a bright potential for communion with others, including a greater power, and for works of healing.

Healing, that is what I am praying for.