In Memory of Bubba

I had planned on writing a different Blog last night but things changed. Today's will be about my beloved Bug dog Bubba.

Coming home from work is always a joy because my dogs eagerly and lovingly meet me with wiggles, kisses and smiles every day. If I had a bad day they would instantly cheer me up with their loving eyes and understanding even if they did not understand a word I said.

I just recently wrote about Bubba as he helped me in the garden. Last night he was out there helping me again when I got home from work. My husband came in the yard and Bubba was so excited to see him he ran right in front of his truck. I saw the whole thing and there is nothing you can do to stop them as they are so excited to see everyone.

Unfortunately he got hit. I was in total shock, he took off running to the house which I thought was a good thing. After getting into the house I examined him and he just had a cut or two on his face and was walking fine. He looked like he was not feeling well and I assumed it was from being hit and had bruises. He went to his bed and stayed there for awhile until he came out and put his head on my foot and I thought he was doing better. I prayed over him and petted him, telling him how sorry I was and hoping he would get better.

When I went to bed he got up and went back to his bed. If he wasn't better in the morning I was going to take him to the vet. I came down the steps hoping he had bounced back a little more and was on the mend. To my utter dismay he had passed away during the night, laying in his bed. I had prayed he would be better.

So forgive me today if this might not be the best post but my heart is breaking. I have lost a love that cannot be replaced. My dogs are like family to me and they love me with all their hearts as I do them. A heaviness is in my heart today. I know I will be okay at some point but I need to grieve the loss of Bubba so forgive me if I am not up to par.

I need to find forgiveness in my heart also towards my husband who did not mean to do this. I am upset and I know he is too. Right now I need to look deep in my heart to bring that forgiveness up.

My other dog Bailey, which is Bubba's brother is acting very distant right now and won't go back to their beds. I hugged him and told him how sorry I was. He is acting real sad and of course he was sleeping next to Bubba during the night. I can only imagine what is going on in his mind right now.

So if you see me today or talk to me, I really could use a hug and some extra TLC. My heart is broken and needs to mend.